This is Autism

I have been on blogging break recently.  I gave birth to my adorable Baby Girl four months ago.  Then three months ago I moved with the family from Australia (back) to the USA.  Yep! Trust me…. it has been an adjustment.  We are still adjusting. One day at a time.   

Monday-November 11th 2013:

2:58am—Kiddo wakes up and calls out for me to lie next to him.  This has been a pattern for the past week or so.  Sleep is an ongoing struggle for my five year old (almost 6) Kiddo. I get up and go and lie next to him.  My back has been hurting since I gave birth to Baby Girl.  Plus Kiddo’s bed does not have a pillow-top mattress.  Pricing pillow top add-ons is on my ‘list of things to do’.  This  will allow me to lie next to my son in his bed without being in pain.  I am also aware that Hubby is bone-crunchingly tired and I want to try to let him sleep.

3:30am—Kiddo is still awake.  I give him some melatonin (or as Kiddo calls it ‘sleeping medicine’) to try and help him drop back to sleep. Baby Girl wakes up ready to feed.  This ends up taking a while and Kiddo starts calling out for Daddy this time to come and lie next to him.  Which Daddy does. Kiddo has been so anxious lately with all the changes that managing this anxiety has become a priority for us.

4:00am—I finish feeding Baby Girl and then struggle to get back to sleep.  I am worried about Kiddo and school.  The staff at his new school have been great, but Kiddo is pretty stressed out and his behaviour at school communicates this.  We are doing all we can to support him.  He is trying so hard.

5:05am—Kiddo finally falls back to sleep.  Daddy returns to his bed and falls asleep. I go back to sleep.

5:58am—Baby Girl wakes up for the day. She is all smiles! I get up with her and start our morning routine. Coffee is my friend.  Drive-through coffee is awesome too.

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6:30am—I am on the couch with Baby Girl and the iPhone. I begin researching possible activities for Kiddo to do today.  I am thinking of a family outing into the city.  Always gotta have a plan in this house! A day with no plan is just not good for Kiddo. Or us. Period.  Then Kiddo wakes up and bursts into the lounge room with joy: ‘Hi Mum-It’s me! I am back!’ .  Gorgeous!

7:00am-Kiddo watches TV. When the show is finished he looks out the window, sees the sunshine and exclaims with total excitement: ‘What a day! I am happy today. I feel good.  Sunshine! What a day! No school today.’  I respond to his total enthusiasm with ‘That’s wonderful Kiddo. I am so glad you feel happy today. I feel worried when you are sad and upset.’ Kiddo: ‘I am sorry mummy. I will try again.’ Me: ‘That’s OK Kiddo.  I am proud of you. I know you are trying.’

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Some days lately he is not so happy. There have been many meltdowns.  This boy of mine really does try so hard to ‘manage’ and regulate himself, his emotions, his body and its need for movement and input. This ‘management’ of his body and emotions is not only internal but also external, including contending with noisy, busy, highly verbal environments, bright fluorescent lighting and the general chaos of life and all its demands.  It’s a full time challenge for him….and our family.

8:21—Kiddo sits down for breakfast and starts looking under his chair. Me: ‘What are you doing Kiddo?’ Kiddo: ‘I don’t have a seatbelt’. Me: That’s funny! You don’t need a seatbelt in the house, only in the car.’ I smile at our cute conversation.  These days there are so many cute conversations. I don’t take it for granted. Never ever.

I sit down with Baby Girl on my lap while Kiddo eats his cereal.  I show Kiddo my sore finger.  I seriously have no idea how I hurt it! I ask him what should I do to make my finger feel better. Kiddo: ‘Go and see a doctor.’ Me: ‘I think I might ice it and see if that helps take away the pain.’ Kiddo: ‘Give me a try..Give you a try...(I wait – I know he is searching for the correct word)…Give IT a try.’ (yep-he found the word he wanted.) Word retrieval. Another struggle for Kiddo. Now my finger is numbed with ice I am pain free.

9:08—Hubby is up now.  It’s Veterans Day in the USA and he is home from work. Kiddo says to us at the breakfast table: ‘I feel HAPPY!!’. Me: ‘Why are you happy?’ Kiddo: ‘Because I am happy.’ Me: ‘But why?’. Kiddo: ‘Happy for mum and dad!’ Me and Hubby: ‘Awwww! Thanks Kiddo!’ I see Kiddo looking at Baby Sister…I can see he is searching for his words again…he says slowly: ‘Glad. Glad for Baby Sister.’

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9:31–Kiddo bounds over to his new ‘Angry Birds’ card game and asks Dad to play with him.  He has just started to play card games and board games this year. He loves it. He loves numbers.  Anything math related-he is in! Bingo and CandyLand are another two favourites. I love playing these games with my son. I feed Kiddo his vitamins while he plays and hand Hubby his coffee.  I put Baby Girl to bed for her morning nap, pack a cold lunch for Kiddo, load Dad and Kiddo into the car for a trip to the Skate Park to ride their scooters, and I crawl into bed for a morning nap. By this time I am hurting. I need sleep.

12pm—Dad and Kiddo come home from the Skate Park.  Hubby is exhausted and crawls into bed for a nap.  I am up with Baby Girl and do some cleaning while Kiddo has downtime playing games on the Ipad.  They are not educational games. Purely downtime…for him and us.  

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1pm—the Ipad dies. It wasn’t plugged into the wall properly.  I help co-regulate Kiddo who is very upset.  I wake up Hubby and we start getting ready to head out again.  All four of us this time.

2pm-4pm—We drive downtown to explore the city.  Kiddo loves it.  We drive around and find a park to visit.  I wait in the car with Baby Girl who is sleeping now and Hubby plays a high energy game of ‘chasey’ and ‘sharks’ with Kiddo and the other kids at the park.  Hubby is so animated I can hear him from down the street!

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5pm—home. We are all tired now.  Kiddo is much less verbal/non-verbal later in the day.  Also he is not responding to anything verbal.  We switch to visual supports about now.  Also his movements are more unpredictable.  Everyone is feeling.. ratty… it’s a challenge to stay calm and its a race to the finishing line (bed time).  

We drop past the shops to grab dinner.  Kiddo plays games on Dad’s I-phone while we wait in the car.  A phone call comes through. Kiddo answers the call and says : ‘I don’t want you to call me. I am trying to do something.  I’ll call you later. Speak soon. Bye-Bye now.’   Too funny! I laugh out loud and congratulate Kiddo for doing an awesome job answering the phone.  He normally just hangs up on whoever calls him when he is playing his games on the Iphone.  He giggles at my laughter.  I cant wait to tell hubby the good news! This is progress is our house!

The ‘night-time routine’ begins: Bath—dinner—Lego—Angry Birds card game (it’s usually TV  but Kiddo is loving his new game so we switch it out)—melatonin—brush teeth—toilet—read book—bed.

7:30pm—Kiddo is upset and crying.  Hubby’s phone died while putting Kiddo to bed. Kiddo calms eventually and is asleep by 8pm. Baby Girl goes to bed at 8pm.

8:00pm–Hubby has a work meeting. I write this blog post.

11:00pm–Bed. Hubby and I talk about the possible 3am wakeup and make a plan for this.  Tomorrow is a school day so we know Kiddo will be feeling anxious.

11:30—Baby Girl wakes up. Time for a feed. Before I know it its midnight.  There are some common themes in our autism day-to-day. Sleep. Communication. Planning.

Please feel free to share the keywords/phrases that form a ‘theme’ in your household…

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